Happy Moms Day ♥

with my heavy eyes, unconnected nerve, and unconciousness, i write down what i feel after wake up so early. Thankful. yes! i thank God for everything i have, for everything around and for everything God gives, especially my Mom :") . look, it such a drama writing down the feeling, shed the tears, but i really thank i was born from my mom's tummy. eventhough she often angry or behave like dark queen (LOL), she still my mom and no one can replace her!


Well, happy moms day, mom ! i love you more and more even when you doesn't notice or know ♥

be inspired

I just looked some blogs to make references for mine. and when i clicked the "diana rikasari's", i read this magic words ! it happened to me, as well, ms. diana. The hardest thing to do in life is to hold on to what you believe when other people disbelieve! When the belief in your heart is that strong, it must mean something. Never underestimate your own heart...:) -Diana Rikasari- i just remember how this feeling came into me about years ago, in training become a member of my ex-organization. when i saw my senior in there, when i hated him a lot, so did my friends, and it became umm.. little thing called .... i shouldn't write down the next points. LOL :D . i really support this diana's words, i mean don't think about another's disbelieve when you believe that very much. your heart shows you best way in living your life. that the heart use to be. after saw the blog of diana, i just thought that she is inspired lot of people from her blogs and words. above all of that things, i really adore and be inspired by the propher Muhammad saw. HE IS THE BEST OF ALL THE BEST! i learn lot of things from him. so do the people i inspire as well maybe. he teaches me how to do behave well, how to life well i mean in the God's way, how to appreciate another, how to appreciate other people's goodness, how to become good person. he is the more inspiring man in this whole world. i inspired by my parents and they are inspired by the propher, so, he is the most inspiring man. i just feel lucky being a Muslim. really. alhamdulillah o:) and in the end, i want to be inspired by other people as well. my behavior, my creation, my successes, my everything. i really want to show to the world that i also can be inspired. not now, but in one day.. life is once, I really will do the best for this opportunity that gave by God. i will do. pray me to get my prayers, let us pray together for our bestlife.let us be inspired for many people:D p.s : i beg you all, if you read this, please send your prayer for my foster father, Mr. Jamal, for his health. he is in hospital now getting little stroke :"( . thankyou

my tiring november

well, november is my "busy" month, exactly. there are lot of people celebrate their special moments this month. while they are happy in welcoming their special day, i become so busy in helpng them celebrate that ! i am pretty sure i would get my happiness in making another happy. :D . oke, first, let's talk about umm.. my very best friend, virgin, 's wedding ! she just celebrated her birthday on november, 10th and went to be wife two days after ! me and my another bestfriends, bc, prepared everything ! we buy same dresses for 12 people, we buy some presents for her, and we just hope in her special moment, we can make her happy, as well. we're so interested in virgin's! i mean, hello we're still 20 and our friend has married ! can you imagine how cute it is. on thursday a week before the day, we just went to tanah abang and looked for kaftan to virgin's. we, my friends and me, did some little fighting in choosed the dresses. you know, the more heads think, the more perceptions you should accepted. right? and finally we got maroon kaftan.

we finally choosed these maroon kaftans :") my bc girls, i love you <3

and, welcoming the virgin's wedding, i also trusted by her to publicated her wedding to my highschool friends. i was sooooo very busy ! and till the day, finally the wedding has its multibenefits as a little reunion. i missed them a lot ! ah, no, i loved them a lot ! look, i never feel like become a queen in other groups but this ! i mean, they are the best one ! i just want to show y'all that they are really important to me in living this life. they give lotta knowledges in friendship, caring, loving and even fighting :) i can't say more in expressing my good feeling over here. i just love them, so much ! :*

they are the best ! i love y'all, a lot !<3
from left top to bottom right (aksa,yuli, me, virgin, sani, gitta, arum,pusme, yoga, adit, aris, eja, inuk)

ah anyway, during that week, i did some business in designed co-card for trapara (my choir's training) and it became my stress week, i tought. i trusted by my friends to designed the cocard and for moduls. well, i did my best. may they feel happy or enjoy my design :)

this is my co-card design. it still two photos more, but i have deleted it :( is that nice or bad design?

the day before virgin's wedding was my bestmate, Ni Made Parasari, 's birthday !!! well, i went back to tanah abang that day to buy some presents for virgin, and after it done, i continued my trip to ibet's dorm to surprised her ! i texted her boy friend to helped me in did this plan. before that, i went to arion, the mall-that i tought good one in look for present-but no, to buy present for her. i looked for fedora hat, but couldn't find that ! and finally i buy bodymist for her. after that, i went to the dorm, met her boyfriend and waited her in her room. her room is made from wood, so when people step on that, it would be heard. some people step on the wood floor and i tought that was her, i turned the candles on and off several times. and when she came in, the candle was off ! hahaha. that was awkward and i sang her a happy birthday sudden. then we laughed together. after that, we went to celebrated in her house. we met with my mates, wudik and eek there. that was so full of fun ! happy birthday ibet ! i love you ! <3

happy birthday my bestest girl ever, ibet. welcome to the real jungle of life, i heart you,as always <3

and yesterday was the top of tired day ! really ! i joined scholarship, actually, short course from iief. i really got hard time in completed my requirements just because my faculty member :"(. i knew about this scholarship on wednesday ! two days before the due date ! my god ! and when i asked for my dean's subordinate's signature, i should asked the administratif signature first. he was so annoyed ! i can't hold my tears, and cried on thursday. but finally i can completed and applied the requirements because of my mom's prayer and absolutely God :") may my tears bear the good result. amin amin amin o:)

p.s : i love you, mom and dad, you are my everything, no offense ! love you !

back to my birthday

well hello back agaaaain. it's been so looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong time i didnt post since may right? i passed my birthday, and haven't blog anything bout it yet. ah a lot of stories i should post. where are we start from? hmm my birthday, may 31st, arround 3weeks ago. full of tired but fun ! geez ! first time, i woke up in 20 yrold, i got surprised from my mny . ah couldnt grateful more ! seriously, the biggest surprise ever, because i hadn't any idea about it ! they brought a cake and gave me a gift.


sweet. after, we played around about 2 or 3 hours, i went back to my campus, and arrived in class, my classmates sang a birthday song for me. how sweet ! and my bestfriend, rais, gave me an earphone. thankyooou.


after class done, my "genk" called me to bc (basecamp) and they looked like there's nothing happen, and yeah, i got big surprise when i walked out went to home ! geez ! like a toxic. made from sarden and another disgusting stuffs.


went back to home, i got second cake from my parent. awwwwwwwww.


and my sisters gave me a figure of my photo. ah they are sweet !


and yesterday i got macaroni from my aunty. late but it's better than never. thankyou everyone. i am blessed ! a lot !

what a super mega tiring day !

well hello, how's your day going, guys ? i just had a super tiring day ! not physicly, but mindly. my brain just worked hard today and that was so so so super tired ! imagine when you just have capacity for your brain 100%, and you such used it almost 99,999%. your brain really need to rest, exactly ! well, i just did my task, for my performance tomorrow for personality subject. it's about heredity and its effect to personality. the task is given for a group but still, it made me so tired, i need holiday, esp a beach. anyway, i spent my whole day in library with my group, did the task. read lot of books ! SIT DOWN FOR HOURS IN FRONT OF OUR NETBOOK ! and, kept thinking about the pwer point and papers. oh my.

this picture that i took this afternoon when i did the papers

a library always be a library, i mean, the place for calmness, lonelyness, and yeah some things like that. i love spending time in library, honestly but when i sit down there for more hours, seems like my brain going to explode. ha ha. anyway, while my friend did the task in "their part" , i was drawing flowers in the pot on blackboard : p

this is my drawing, not that bad, eh ? ; P

anyway, one of my friends said that my right brain just useful because i can draw -_- i just think that everyone can draw rite ? then, if my right brain uses, so is that mean my left brain just stucked ? hahah. anyway, i just want to say cheers to us, keep your spirit to do your task, for the shining future ! gooo, we can get our best :D well, see you next time in my next writing, guys. love you : D

combining tasks and musics

ah, the best thing when you're learning something is to do tasks! i know my dad has ever said that task makes perfect, such as practice. i just met my senior this afternoon and he said the most unforgettable moment when you're in school or college is task ! yah, i'll try to make the task something positive. may i be successful with the tasks that my lecturers gave. ah, i am in the process of practicing choir to our performance (insya Allah) will be heading on next September. can't waaaait. I am interested in doing some performances, esp in singing. look, i love singing a lot, even i know i haven't a good voice, i just enjoy my moment when i sing. such as being yourself and getting the feelings out with the music. I often combine the tasks with music, it just makes you more relaxed when you do some tasks and the music play. especially if you try memorizing something and you make the things be a song, you can memorize that matery easily, guys ! just try ! anyway, this is the partiture i have read today, arti song, one song in kuch kuch hotahei movie : D

the partiture i had read : D i enjoy singing the arti song, omjay shakedi shar hae

welcome may, i just had some fun in april !!

first of all, welcome may ! my month :D im glad you come at once i hate it because I'm going to be 20 :(. well I've been busy for a few days ago, some business killed me and made me feel restless. but some business went fun ! i was a committee for one of events in my campus. well, it is just a fun! look, the more you get trusted, the more you feel you do exist and people appreciated you, anyway. ah, i was a master of ceremony in my event ;p my first experience. most of people think being a mc is easy and too hyper if i appreciate it a lot, but look, i was trying hard to show my best. a lot of tears to make me perfect. i remember my dad's quote : with some critics, you just make yourself more perfect. so, just make the critics positive ! well, im tryin dad. anyway, i just had another fun with my best friend, pipit. I met her 4 months ago and last day we just did some girl stuffs. hanged-out with pipit such a gave me some positive energy (not hyper), even just for a few later days, at least, i have positive energy right now \m/ yeaaaaah. thankyou ibet <3

me and pipit did some photobooth : D

back !

hi, what's up? it's been a long time since i posted the posting, rite ? well, i just thought deactivate my blog, but i suddenly miss writing down on my blog, so i think i am going to active my blog. yeeeiy. well, im in high depression about the college's stuffs. they. just. make. my day. worse ! i always wait for weekend for take some rests. feelin like im gonna killed by that tasks. such a halusination haha. sorry for being insane. well, im in progress finding out the title of my final test (about 1,5 years later). too fast, but i think i should end my college as soon as possible, even impossible. i just want to get out of that place. it doesnt because i have any problems inside, no no, im just well, but i want to make some money and yeah honestly, i am so lazy about sudy stuffs ! -_- yaaack. anyway, i have already onlined since 3 hours ago and i (almost) forget about the midtest, to-mor-row ! good, i will handle it buy cheating to my friend, certainly ! ha ha. well, i'll see you on my next postings guys, have a nice day !

Look, i can be a great writer !

such a new experience and just moved to a better life, writing. yes, I'm a newbie. I think writing is fun and yah you can put your inspiration into a paper. it's easy, you just need a paper and a pen and start writing, anything ! you are what you write ! LOL. you can make your own world. there is no one will complain about is, and feels free to make any world, any story you dream about. to get good compliment is that so not as easy as you think. may be you can write anything into a paper but it's just for yourself. if you want people appreciate your writing, you should read a lot and mm what we called it such an edited your writing and carefully write anything. difficult but it's such a new challenge ! said, write is fun. look, i think i can be a great writer. at least, im on my way to get my successes in this part. i just start writing !

well, i am a (next) universe's traveller

well, I think no one doesn't want to travel around this beautiful circle thing, the earth, including me. I remember the question my elementary teacher ever asked. what do you want to be, in the next 20 years? mostly, my peers said that they wanted to be doctors, nurses, and teachers. I was different. I wanted to be a detective at that time. now, it's different. I just want to have a lot of money and yes, traveling around this beautiful world. may Allah listen to my prayer and let it come someday, ameeen. well, can I say myself one as a (next) traveler? at least, I'm in the process of visiting every side of my country, Indonesia. Hopefully, to every side and corner of the world too. Amiin