Been so shockingly long to not put some writings here. It's been missed, somehow and so here i am, write something again. So, what's new is we were just celebrating Eid-il Fitr, so EID MUBARAK to moslem brothers and sisters around the whole world. May we reunite again with Ramadhan in every upcoming years.. Aamiin..
For the past months, i really push myself to utilize my time only for Allah, as it was Ramadhan and i wanted to use my time properly. Hence, i fix my relationship with Allah, fix my Habluminallah. I was so focus on this one yet forget about another, which is Habluminanaas. I think I have been became someone else, recently. Being so reckless, so rude, so mean to other people. People become so annoying in my eyes all of sudden. They just did something that was very disturbing for me. Like whatever they do, they wrong. Just because i did that, they did the same things to me too. Like they talk behind me about my bad, they were very nosy, and they hate me evenmore. I hate when i became like that and hate when i was treated by people like that. Seriously. So i prayed a lot to Allah to give me to bring me back to the right direction. And i have found the reasons. It is not them who wrong. It was me. I tried hard to please myself so did to everyone else, yet it was not satisfying. I did a lot of things that supposed to be right, supposed to make me and everyone else happy. But the fact that it happened the opposite, it saddened me.
I recite Quran, I read the translate of the Quran, I read a lot of quotes, I read a lot of articles on how to maintain my behavior to be exactly like a lady. I even look for some writings in wikiHow! And indeed, Allah will guide you when you are lost. To be exactly to not get annoyed by what people do, i have to be involve on what they do. To feel what they feel. And to have a good simplicity in life, i have to ease other people's hardships. The hardships are not kidding, yet the surprises are just as not kidding as the hardships, as well. However, for the not kidding things around, the period of life slaps us hard wake us up, tell us that the hardships and the surprises, which are not kidding, just nothing. It is just temporary. So does the feeling. And most of all, silence is a gold is truly right. Like the main point to not feeling those bad thing, is just ignore it. Ignore unnecessary things. Let they do what they do. Let they get what they want. People, everyone, you, and i, we deserve the happiness. So just let only the happiness knock on your life. Ah, and also love.
Some conditions made me grow up, i think, not fully but i changed for some good reasons, in a very tiny little amount of thoughts, talks and behaviors. I just keep reminding myself for thousand and billion times, that life, just doesn't go as you plan. Like, you can not always get what you want and hope. Allah will give something to you in the very right time. It is promised in Quran that after hardships there will be ease. Insya Allah. And i just realized that we can not please everyone. Even Allah doesn't please satan. You know, as long as you are on the direction to get your dreams, happiness and loves, just don't mind everybody else. You know, ducks are gonna still quacks, aren't they?
So, with my humble heart, i wish and pray for our happiness, for our broaden mind, for our bright future, for the easiness in every hardships so we can get what we want. Insha Allah, everything is going to be so very allright. Insha Allah..
