Lately, I have been thinking about the after life. It somehow drives me to make the present times worth to live day by day. Pray, live, try as a human being. Being grateful by doing those three words sincerely and diligently.
Anyway, I love making some projects in mind and put some deadlines for finishing them. Does it sound weird? This time, it is for my skill aspects. I call it Self-Skill Development Project. I have been wondering about what kind of skill that I want to develop. I mean, there are so many areas that i would gladly try, but i think i have to make it a little narrower. Honestly, as a kid, I didn't get a chance to explore a lot of things that would develop my self-potential, especially things related to what i realize now as my interest, art.
I decide to do everything that I like to do and to make my heart content. Sometimes, art also can be stressful to do, right? I've seen some arguments, fights in art-world, especially about copyright. As i see, art is not really as free as what people said. Someone would complain here and there about their artwork being copied by others, or someone would really freely steal someone's artwork and claimed that those are theirs, or about the payment of the artwork that is not satisfying and any other problems. So complicated but that also makes art, arts. Anyway, actually there are a lot of things that i would like to do in art forms and i try to fill my 7 days doing some of them. What i am doing in developing my self (slash) finding my inner hidden potential is by learning these challenging but entertaining things.
Music has always been my company, my healer, my friend, my everything. Without realizing it, i think i can't live without it. Every 24 hours, even minutes before i sleep or minutes after i wake up, music has always been there since i was a kid. I think it is my Aunt who brought me there as she is also a music enthusiast and was a cool bathroom singer. I want to contribute myself in and be in that environment therefore I chose to learn a musical instrument as I can't really sing well and i want to be able to create and write a song someday. I learned how to play piano by myself through youtube. So, if you are one of musician or someone who can really play piano, please upload your piano tutorial to your youtube, please. I'd probably learn one or two songs tutorial from your play :D/.
Writing has always been my comfort and war zone at the same time. I always think that one thing that i am positively capable to do in life is writing, despite what other people see and think. I always have a love-hate relationship with writing. Writing for me is like a process to talk and be honest with myself. I got so many things from writing and i lost so many things because of it, as well. So yeah, writing is like a south and north magnet in me. However, i learn doing what some people do right now, related to writing, it is lettering. Lettering is not easy. You may see it just as cursive writing but not. It needs patience in doing it with thick and thin methods. I have my diary books, making it like a journal (with fancy stickers, drawings, colorful pens or markers) but never had i did the lettering things on my books. So, for this year diary book, at least i want to do like what bullet journalist do.
Painting and drawing have always been my interest since i was kid. That's why i love visiting museums. Seeing someone's paintings, immersing on the paintings, trying to learn the meaning of the paintings and to finally understand it completely, isn't it a great feeling? Like you can communicate with the artist and feel their feelings while they create the art itself. I want to be like them. Be able to express mind and feeling without talking out loud, but they finally will understand or even get motivated by it. But it is effing hard. To find your style in doing that, to be one of a million who can create unique artworks. Moreover in this era. That's why i say art sometimes can be stressful. But, because i want to learn it, i learn it. This time, i still copying someone's artwork in instagram or pinterest. But who knows in some next year ahead?
picture above : inspiration from pinterest
picture above : inspiration from youtube "how to paint with himi gouache for beginner"
