Merry Day! It has always been my favorite holiday when it comes to big day and new year holiday. So we have long days to take a rest or even going somewhere with the loved ones. Me? Just stay at home with my family. Though i don't celebrate christmas, I love the ambient of the christmas day. So, ho ho ho.
December has always be my favorite, but it gave me things i always hate. This, i may say as an injustice. You know when you like things but it didn't happen as you expect. This is not fair, i thought. A lot of obstacles, a lot of things that probably blocked me from the smooth path to what so people call dream comes true. But, they say "you grow stronger from the pain". I believe that there's always a silver lining in every cloud. Insha Allah..
By the end of the year, it comes to my mind, what did i do, what have i done in this year? Was it good enough for me? for community? Did my resolutions in this year come to pass? All of questions suddenly come in mind. The answer is as same as the year before, which is, not all of them. By that i mean, there is no specific good progress in my life, then. Was it because my resolution(s) too hard to do? Too difficult to happen? Then, i think about something i probably did not do all of the time. Sincere.. Just sincerely accepted what has been written to me. thing that has been destined to me. May i have the power of getting by. Insha Allah..
It is not an age that i can play easily, this is the moment that remind me that i should wake up and go. go to catch every dreams on the paper on my wall in my bedroom. I think, by having the obstacles that i said before, Allah reminds me to disenchant myself that my dreams as wide as the sky, as much as the salt in the sea. I should and have to catch every one thing that i build up for the goodness of myself. Slow, but sure. It is fine. I have been trapped in my comfort zone for the long time. Too long. Well, i always pray to Allah to not let me be in my comfort zone, because it is dangerous. for me, for the community as well. I probably could forget about a lot of important thing that i probably can do if i am outside of that zone..
By the way, few weeks ago, i finally had a chance to rest my brain, mind, soul, body to the ... beach ! not as perfect as i imagined, but still.. remember of the sound of the waves, feel the wind that blows softly, see the color of the sun, rise and set, it really made my month. Made my December. Alhamdulillah..
Amor fati means the love of the faith (If i am not wrong). I should be positive and optimist of what will happen on next year. Just let it be. Let it be with no many resolution(s). I just want my 2016 filled with happiness, endlessly. Every single day. For the bad things that would happen, for the obstacles that i would face, i hope and pray, there is a happy thing as the substitute.
Once again, let us spend the last days on this year by gratitude feeling. By spreading a lot of kindness to ourselves and to the others. Thank you so much, 2015 gave me so many great experiences and lessons. Alhamdulillaah.. Wish and hope next year will be happier and more bloom than this year. Insha Allah..
It is not an age that i can play easily, this is the moment that remind me that i should wake up and go. go to catch every dreams on the paper on my wall in my bedroom. I think, by having the obstacles that i said before, Allah reminds me to disenchant myself that my dreams as wide as the sky, as much as the salt in the sea. I should and have to catch every one thing that i build up for the goodness of myself. Slow, but sure. It is fine. I have been trapped in my comfort zone for the long time. Too long. Well, i always pray to Allah to not let me be in my comfort zone, because it is dangerous. for me, for the community as well. I probably could forget about a lot of important thing that i probably can do if i am outside of that zone..
By the way, few weeks ago, i finally had a chance to rest my brain, mind, soul, body to the ... beach ! not as perfect as i imagined, but still.. remember of the sound of the waves, feel the wind that blows softly, see the color of the sun, rise and set, it really made my month. Made my December. Alhamdulillah..
Amor fati means the love of the faith (If i am not wrong). I should be positive and optimist of what will happen on next year. Just let it be. Let it be with no many resolution(s). I just want my 2016 filled with happiness, endlessly. Every single day. For the bad things that would happen, for the obstacles that i would face, i hope and pray, there is a happy thing as the substitute.
إن مع العسر يسرا
(Verily with every hardship comes ease)
Once again, let us spend the last days on this year by gratitude feeling. By spreading a lot of kindness to ourselves and to the others. Thank you so much, 2015 gave me so many great experiences and lessons. Alhamdulillaah.. Wish and hope next year will be happier and more bloom than this year. Insha Allah..
