Thank God, The World Is Still Spining

Start from the happy until that becomes sad all of a sudden. Can you imagine when you only put your feet up to the last step to get your aim? only one last step and it stuck for some reason and it (may) destroy your wishes, hopes, and (perhaps) even your life. God, it happened to me and well friends, lemme tell you mine.

Felt happy while singing in a choir a few weeks ago, and for months and years. Days ago an announcement came and told that the singer(s) who will be joining the competition in ... Thailand. well, weeks ago, you could count the optimists by fingers. i mean, a lot of people in the choir were very pessimist about this. me? i'm an optimist, and thank God for it. i was pulled by a (very) optimist person and thank God for it (again). i asked the pessimists to come join us, the optimists, and it succeeded. i sang happily, full of spirit, and other people may know that i was the most powerful person who wanted to go there. until days ago, the announcement said that i was a backup. well, it may looks hyperbolic or something like an exaggeration, but you should know that I really want to go there. not only Thailand. well, based on my thoughts about my passion and it may be travelling (but i am not so sure about that), it surely help me fulfill my needs, especially in achievement. She (the conductor) said that i have a rough voice and she decided me to be a backup singer. i should thank IF i surely can go. but the possibility is only 1% and i am so sure that you may see me become one of the pessimist guys. How would you feel if you are me? it's okay to let it go, isnt it? well, i haven't told you the point of mine. i have 4 best friends there and they all will go. worse, there's one who already did not come twice and more in rehearsal and she'll go. i smell some unfair things there. i forget about my spirit, forget about all my thoughts about Thailand. it only Thailand, for you who rich or not care, but it is my chance to go abroad after this (perhaps) :"(

"A miracle is something that seems impossible but it happens anyway." -Men in Black III (2012)

After all that happened to me, i thank God for giving me a chance to feel this failure so i can be stronger than anyone else and i really Thank God for letting the world keep spinning so i may get another chance to go to Thai or may be Greece. Amiinn. for those wise words, i still can't relieve my sadness. it's human being right? wish me can feel happy or accept that decision. Amiin o:)

Five Cakes A Week ?!

Hello, i am back. let's start the story .....

 

Am i that amazing got five cakes a week? such a blessed and felt so awesome because had eaten five cakes oh and the dimsums ! Well, yeah i guess i am that amazing and cool having that cakes for my weird birthday. NO. you all are amazing having me in your life rite ? :p no im joking, seriously, you all are best ! i mean you still gave me the loves, the cares, and everything, eventhough i often hurt your heart, maybe? i just thanked you all for the loves, prayers and everything. i am realizing that eventhough i often stand alone, well not alone at all in passing my days because i have you all as my best people in this once life <3

Okay, Here we go for these beautiful and delicious cakes. 

cake one, from my family. so schweet ! i love you dad mom sisters aunty ! <3

 

cake two, from Aries and Yuli. simple brownies with complicated loves inside :") thankyouu 

cake three, from MNY. geez, this surprise is unpredictable :p and the 21 dimsums? they taste best when you eat them after you wake up ! thankyou Wudik Ibet Eek Ketul and Nino i love youuuu !

 

cake four, from BC ! this surprise also unpredictable aaaand weird ! haha they sang birthday song behind me and they were run -_- haha. thankyouu Virgin Reisha Nesya Winda Tata Meida Nisa Mizan Indah Restu Tate. FYI, i am counting their name while i write their names. haha ;p I love you all !

 

after all, the last but the cutest cake i was given, from my lovely best choir friends. ahhh look at that hair, thats so me, isnt it ? :p Thankyou a lot Atu Tarling Viola Acid Bone and everyone there when i blew the candles. i love youu all !

p. s : veryyyyyyy busied by some works these two weeks. almost forget with the priority of life, college. should fix the schedule between college stuffs and side task. anw, i had played with the rorschach test. it was soooo excited ! i show you some. 

21

 

And finally it comes. full of tears. i mean like, man, you're that old too read comics or chew bubble gums or playing swing-swang or something that children should do. with the negative feeling like that inside, i also feel soooooo greateful for surrounded by good people, having a very very great family and friend to live with. I mean like for 20 years you surrounded by goods, you couldn't always complain about your age or anything. you better stand up, smile and give another people positive energy.  I have learned a lot things for last 20 years and now it's time to give back what i got, right? a lot of prayers, hopes and wishes sent to me and that means i should keep that and do my best for making everyone very proud of me. thank you for always beside me when i am happy or sad, everyone. you are rock ! may the goods, joys, and every good things, people always surround me. May God always helps me gettin through the hard way and helps me to chase my dreams and get that. lot of prayers, dude. lot of things to do as well. i am an adult now, be mature, Ci.

21th? FOREVER YOUNG!

 

 Well, get this little cute piture edited by aulia :") how sweet. thank you for network gift, wud. :*

 

p.s : would you mind to give me a simple gift by joining the Islamic Styling Competition UFF ? i would be sooo very happy if you do. :")