Start from the happy until that becomes sad all of a sudden. Can you imagine when you only put your feet up to the last step to get your aim? only one last step and it stuck for some reason and it (may) destroy your wishes, hopes, and (perhaps) even your life. God, it happened to me and well friends, lemme tell you mine.
Felt happy while singing in a choir a few weeks ago, and for months and years. Days ago an announcement came and told that the singer(s) who will be joining the competition in ... Thailand. well, weeks ago, you could count the optimists by fingers. i mean, a lot of people in the choir were very pessimist about this. me? i'm an optimist, and thank God for it. i was pulled by a (very) optimist person and thank God for it (again). i asked the pessimists to come join us, the optimists, and it succeeded. i sang happily, full of spirit, and other people may know that i was the most powerful person who wanted to go there. until days ago, the announcement said that i was a backup. well, it may looks hyperbolic or something like an exaggeration, but you should know that I really want to go there. not only Thailand. well, based on my thoughts about my passion and it may be travelling (but i am not so sure about that), it surely help me fulfill my needs, especially in achievement. She (the conductor) said that i have a rough voice and she decided me to be a backup singer. i should thank IF i surely can go. but the possibility is only 1% and i am so sure that you may see me become one of the pessimist guys. How would you feel if you are me? it's okay to let it go, isnt it? well, i haven't told you the point of mine. i have 4 best friends there and they all will go. worse, there's one who already did not come twice and more in rehearsal and she'll go. i smell some unfair things there. i forget about my spirit, forget about all my thoughts about Thailand. it only Thailand, for you who rich or not care, but it is my chance to go abroad after this (perhaps) :"(
"A miracle is something that seems impossible but it happens anyway." -Men in Black III (2012)
After all that happened to me, i thank God for giving me a chance to feel this failure so i can be stronger than anyone else and i really Thank God for letting the world keep spinning so i may get another chance to go to Thai or may be Greece. Amiinn. for those wise words, i still can't relieve my sadness. it's human being right? wish me can feel happy or accept that decision. Amiin o:)
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