(May)mories

It was kind of different from years before. This year, May becomes oh-not-so-special month for me. There were a lot things, specifically, bad things happened to me on May, while i always hope May will give me an energy or kinda gives signal and cooperates with the universe to make something at least one good thing happened. So far, untill in the middle of that month, my life was more like pathetic. I was (and still am) jobless, I failed on test, I wasn't choosed to accompany my sister to go Umraa, and many things happened. 

this sunflower is one of my happiness that happened in May. Really. I got it from ibu tukang tambal ban for free anyway :)

But still, we don't really know what the God's plans are, right? For the darkness  that surrounds us, there is always a little light. For the heavy rain that soaks us, there is always be rainbow after that. So i believed that there has to be good things instead. Like my birthday, for one of the examples. 

me, 6 years old, 17 years ago 

I can not believe that i really am growing up to the number that even Taylor Swift didn't want to say it out loud and make it to the limit, twenty-two. Well, it wasn't really bad thing tho. It was just unbelievable that time really ticks fast. Reaching 23, i even haven't imagined what it would be, yet now here i am. I am really happy for the overcoming greetings, surprises and gifts, really. It just realizing it that makes me bit sad. However, whatever i feel, whatever i think, whatever it will be, well Que Sera-Sera. It just motivates me to be better and always do the good things, do the nice things to other people even those may be rude, and always always always never feel that i am lack of anything. Well, Allah gives me everything, why bother keep thinking negative thought right? Well, saying and writing this is easier than applying it in a real life. As a human, at least i will try to enjoy the one and only live i have. Well said. :)

It was May 31th, the day before, it was kind of like an early party with my sister and cousin. We went to Dufan. On the day, i got a surprise cake from my family. It was all plain. Untill my friends came bringing another cake and surprise me while i was sleeping. After that, when i back home... I got a present all of sudden sent by post. As simple as that you may think. For me, getting surprises, prayers, cakes, like that was very very touched :") I really thanked to everyone who pray for me sincerely. I wish same prayers go to all of you as well. For the last day of the month i think i wouldnt and couldnt enjoy it, i was very very grateful, instead :) Alhamdulillaaah. 

really, thankyouu very very much everyone :)

p.s : here are some of photos of me, my sister and my cousin spent some times in amusement park. 

simple yet happiest thing i really love in amusement park is faced a merry-go-round