Wednesday, April 30, 2025

G.V.O


Good Vibes Only.

It is how I have been feeling and what has happened to me lately, especially in the first four months of 2025. Wow, twenty twenty-five—already! It felt like I blinked, and the year had changed. 

Anyway, as 2025 rolls in, only good things have happened to me so far — and for that, I’m incredibly grateful, beyond the stars and back.

So many good things have come my way lately that it makes me wonder: what’s waiting for me in the rest of this year? You know, I sometimes get that feeling — when things are going really well, it’s like there’s a storm quietly waiting around the corner. But I also believe the opposite is true: when bad things happen, there’s always a rainbow and some sunshine not too far behind.

Because of that, I’ve never been great at fully enjoying the good times. Don’t get me wrong — I’m deeply grateful. But I also can’t help feeling a little anxious sometimes.

Still, with all the good that’s been coming my way lately, I’ve been trying to shut those thoughts out. I remind myself they’re just "unreal and maladaptive thoughts." So now, I’m doing my best to really be present, to enjoy the moment, and to not take any of these blessings for granted — even the smallest, simplest ones.

To start things off, I want to talk about a song I love so much, as it describes me well. A few years ago, I took the Enneagram personality test and got "Type Seven". The lucky seven. I remember reading the description and thinking, “Yeah… that’s definitely me.”.. Another fun fact about me: Whenever I get curious about something or find something interesting, I tend to go all in—I’ll read, research, and dive as deep as I can. At that time, my focus was on the Enneagram, so I dug into it. That’s how I found a song called Seven by Sleeping at Last. Turns out, the song is actually inspired by that exact Enneagram type.

The first time I heard it, I was like, “Wait… did someone write this about me?”. Lol.  It captured me so well—it was kind of eerie, in the best way. I feel like I can relate to the song. So, there’s a lyric in the song that goes:

"How nice it'd be
If we could try everything
I'm serious, let's make a list and just begin."

So far, I’ve been trying to live by the phrase “good vibes only,” and funnily enough, it kind of connects with that song I mentioned earlier. 

It all started with finally going on my first solo trip, again. Spending time with myself and "discovering something new" has always brought me so much joy and excitement. I got to visit new places, try new things, meet new people, and collect fresh experiences. There were always questions and little wonders in every moment—and surprisingly, I even found answers to some of the things I’d been questioning for a long time. It was amazing!

And finally—something I had been praying to finish for a long time... I finally did it. It might seem small to others, but I bawled my eyes out when I finally accomplished it. It meant the world to me.

Over the past few months, I’ve actually ticked off a few things from my resolution list — and honestly, some of them even made me tear up (in the best way). What still surprises me is that, little by little, I’m starting to feel my sparks back. And for that, I’m really, really grateful. :") These past few months have been filled with so many happy moments, and by that, honestly, I can’t even remember the bad ones that also happened. I know it probably sounds impossible, but wouldn’t it be amazing if we could only remember the good things in life, so we could stay happy, day by day?

If.. one day, I end up losing my memories, I hope the good ones will remain. And if one day, someone or even the world has to lose me, I hope only good memories of me stay behind.

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