Crawling

I keep repeating some of good inspirational and motivational words in to myself, lately. I want to be more positive. I may say that i probably one of the most negative people in the whole world. Not because i want to be seen as a modest one, but really because i am negative, in real life, and i really hate it. I even have thought that i should go to therapist and give me some therapy of positivity or something like that. I have to change. 

Being in the middle of great, talented, inspiring, and positive people would encourage you to be more positive or at least be like them, in good way. I always let myself to be in the middle of them, or at least just read their positive story or tweets. Being positive will bring you a lot of good things. Your face will show the world that you are worth enough to live this life. I want to have my life like that. I want to build a great generation, and it has to be start from myself, right?

 

I always watching talk show that bring me a lot of knowledges and positivity. But sometimes, i take 'em negatively. And that is thing in me i want to change or let go. Insha Allah, my resolution of this year will  be fulfill, though it is not fully filled, but, well yeah at least i do a little change for the better me. It is okay if it is like crawling, but still keep going. Slow but sure.

Anyway, i had a chance to feel something new again. I was given to feel like an actress, anyway hehe. I was in the shoot for Loop activity, and been asked about some questions about loop event last year. It was so nerve racking yet so very exciting. i was so nervous. it was different from the time before, i mean i have shooting for non profit ad, but it was really different. And again, i thanked God to let me feel new experiences each day. hehe..

Anyway, it is may already, the month i always wait for, the month i always afraid of. I can't imagine that only days from now i am going to face my age changes again. I think i am afraid of growing old.. God, let me make my parent, sister, granny, aunts, uncles, cousins, and everyone surround feel so proud of me. Let me live this life happily, inspire others, and getting all the dreams i build, i imagine, i pray for. O Allah O Lord, only You could hear and help me. Aamiin