Chapter 1: Chris Martin and The Others

Once, in this month, Chris Martin and The Others, they have fixed me. 

Happy New Year ! May this year bring us a lot of good and happy things ! I don't have any specific resolution(s) this year. I probably already said it on my previous post, as well. It is not because I don't have motivation to reach things i want to, but, I just want to let the things be.. 

Looking at the calendar that plastered on my wall, i just realize that time really swoosh by, very fast. I got a several sadness in the past 2 weeks. My new year was welcoming by bad things. I wish it was just it. That was for cleaning up my unlucky trait. I hope so. I was cheated by online shop seller for a polaroid. Then, the day after, i broke my phone and the phone screen was cracked and it couldn't be use for a while. Then there are some things also happened not in the way i want and hope. O God, forgive me for my wrongs and mistakes if it can be erase the misfortunes of mine. Aamiin..

So, the life gave me lemons. It was so sour until tasted bitter. When i rode my motorcycle, just went home from the office, passed through the road that full of trees, Chris Martin sang me a song. Fix You, all of the sudden, for 500 songs that i played randomly, with the shuffle mode. He saved me through Chris Martin.

"FIX YOU"

by Coldplay

When you try your best but you don't succeed

When you get what you want but not what you need

When you feel so tired but you can't sleep

Stuck in reverse

When the tears come streaming down your face

When you lose something you can't replace

When you love someone but it goes to waste

Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

I will try to fix you

Could it be more right? My friends said to me if they were me, they probably have already slashing their hand with the knife. LOL. Thank you for the relieve words. You are all the best. Chris Martin was not the only one who helped me stand up after the falls. There are some friends, my family, Payung Teduh, and Banda Neira. They all were connected to help me through this S%6*&8 things (censored).

It's been more than 2 years since i sing in a group with my choir mates. Last week, i got a chance to participate in performing the songs in PSM 24th Birthday. It was really a nerve wracking. Really. There are like billions butterflies in my stomach. But, when we were on stage, it just was going with the flow. I suddenly forget about all of the things that are burdensome. As expected, art is my therapy. Me and my choir mates, all of us sang Havenus Shalom and Tadarus. We made a circle and sang off the song. It was more like passing time with the time machine. It does really exist, the time machine i mean. 

me with the photobomb.. haha.. It's been shooo long not reading the "partitur". me lovey

After that, I got to meet my friends who i have not visited and met for years ! It was so nice to talk about your life at the past and present with them. It was so fun to hear the stories that you don't know for this long time from your friends. I was so extremely happy so i wanted to jump as high as possible for that reason. Some of my friends also got me a free ticket to watch the performances by my favorite bands. It was Payung Teduh and Banda Neira. And i have been crazy for Dan by Sheila on 7 because of Mas Is (the singer of Payung Teduh). He performed it perfectly beautiful. Nothing more make me happy in the end of the beginning of the year than this. They all saved me. I thank 'em, sincerely. 

My family is nothing less than waking me up when i fall. Not like they carry me and force me to wake and stand up, but more like give hand so i can reach them and stand up on my feet. My parents, my guardian angel, my biggest blessings of them all. They sometimes be like jerk, like enemies, like boss, like whatever it called that make me so not happy, but they often make me feel so comfortable, so warm, so unpredictably very good or like whatever it called that make me want to lay down on the clouds because of the happiness. Alhamdulillaaah !

Once again, in this month, Chris Martin and The Others, they have fixed me. 

Thank you.